Suffocation!

I lay down in bed and i close my eyes, i try to sleep but i know deep inside that iam not going to get a wink of sleep.

I sat upright in bed hugging my knees to my chest, i wonder what happened to me.

At least sleeping used to seize my existence for a while. I pray to God why iam like this? But then i realize there is no God and some habits just takes time to vanish.

This feeling i cant take it anymore, i feel like there is this volcano boiling inside of me and when it bursts iam going to destroy everyone around me.

So i try keeping it all inside the smoke, the lava everything and now it is suffocating me.

And i don’t know what to do…